But I guess my brain has other ideas right now.
My doctor has put me on geodon and taken me off the seroquel completely. There’s little sleep. So I had to make a quick appointment with her last week to be seen. She increased the geodon and added Lunesta.
I’m feeling more anxious. And it very well could be due to the lack of sleep. But I’m restless. I go to lay down and my mind starts going, then I have to move. I eventually have to get up. So it’s really no use laying down until I’m absolutely ready to go to sleep.
It’s starting to interfere with my job. I’m too restless at work. I constantly need to do something, but I’m too tired to do it. I can’t concentrate. I feel like I’m a mess.
Hubby tells me that I have a lot going on, and he’s being patient with me which I appreciate. I wish I could be more patient with myself.
I started out yesterday, being productive. I got off work, stayed in town to do some business. I came home, still feeling on top of the world, I went to the pharmacy to refill my prescription for my anxiety meds. They didn’t have a refill, I was down to one. That’s ok, they just fax the doctor, sometime late in the afternoon we should have it, they said. Ok. So, I checked the mail, made a few calls, and sat down. Because I was tired. A long night at work, and having been up for so long past my normal bed time, I just watched TV. I felt the productivity leaving me, that’s ok.
I watched TV until late in the afternoon, Hubby came home a couple of times, and everything was fine. Some time later, I started really feeling weird. Like really keyed up. So, I took my last one. Hoping for the best. Well, turns out, I fell asleep. That was ok too.
We stayed up late, about 10 I think. I just got up an hour ago. That would be 3 in the afternoon.
I’m not sure how I feel about this. It makes me feel bad that I do absolutely nothing on my days off but sleep. And I’m sure that it has something to do with the fact that I stay up at least 24 hours on my first day off. Maybe it’s my body catching up.
Does anyone else sleep excessively?
I’ve noticed that things have slowed down, the likes, follows and such. I’m wondering if it was something I’ve said.
But then I think that, well I’ve been working a lot, I’ve been really tired a lot, so I just don’t blog as much. Plus, I don’t have as much to say.
That’s something new to me, I guess, not having anything to say.
But, lately, things have been mostly ok.
My anxiety is down, for the moment. There are times that I get worked up, like the other night, we were cooking dinner and I just FREAKED out! There was nothing to be scared of, I wasn’t worked up, I just flipped. I started crying, for no reason. Poor Hubby, he just held me. He doesn’t understand what’s going on either. It was weird and kinda scary.
I just didn’t feel well. I felt weird. There was nothing to be feeling weird about. I just didn’t feel good, at all, or is it well? I didn’t feel well. Anyhow. I’ve been having this weird feeling in my stomach. It’s a warm feeling. Like, the skin isn’t warm. There is just a warm feeling on the inside. I’ve tried to explain it to others, but no one really gets it. Family thinks that I’m talking about the skin being warm to the touch. But it’s not. It’s inside and I can feel it, inside. But, I don’t feel it when I touch it. It’s a weird feeling.
Work, well, it’s still work. It was ok this weekend. We had help. BUT I still got yelled at over stupid things. Refer to my previous post. Anyhow, it’s just annoying and infuriating. It makes me really not want to go back, ever. Having issues with bosses makes it really hard to enjoy your job. If you’ve ever had problems, then you know exactly what I’m talking about. Hubby has talked about, maybe, me getting on at the city. But, its going to take a few more months. That’s a few more months of dealing with crap.
I’m still sleeping a lot. This concerns me, but not as much as it used to. Maybe I just know. But, I have no clue.
I’ve been playing around with a program that’s like photoshop. It’s been fun and aggravating. But I’ve made some cool things!