Monthly Archives: September 2013
This is a reveltively short post. I have a friend that is in need of help. Their family is struggling and could use much love and support. The problem is chronic pain and a way to get relief that is going to cost several thousand dollars. Please help as much as you can. Every dollar helps. Thank you.
Read their story and donate at the link below:
It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve failed to continue to update my readers on my current situation dealing with my relationship and my mental status.
Thus far, I’ve been pretty good. Or I think that I have done relatively well considering the situation. It hasn’t been as hard as I thought that it would be.
I’m still feeling the loss. The loss of a good relationship and a friendship, someone that I love. He was security, he was love and trust. But he was my friend and my love. And now, he’s just gone. He doesn’t want to have anything to do with me. He hasn’t called, he hasn’t texted. It’s been quiet. And I don’t like it.
Silence is comforting to some, but to me, silence can be overwhelming. There is too much for it to be quiet in life.
I hold tight to those around me, like my family and the few friends that I do have. It’s been a struggle to realize that I don’t have many friends because my life revolved around him.
I think that the hardest part of all this is the waves of loneliness that wash over me. They come and go. But when they are here, it’s hard to breathe. I feel suffocated, like I’m drowning.
But I know that I’m stronger than this.
I know that I will pull myself out of the darkness.
New Psychiatrist, new diagnosis, and one new medication.
I finally had my appointment with the new psychiatrist here. She was super nice and informative. She asked all the right questions and even allowed me to voice my concerns about the situation I’m currently in.
She diagnosed me with Bipolar disorder, which I already figured that out a while back, and I experience hypomania. I still have the PTSD, I wonder if that will ever go away? She said that the reason I always catch the shadows is because of my PTSD, something that I should have figured out, but didn’t think about it.
She’s keeping me on my current medications, but she’s adding Topomax for headache prevention.
I know that this is a short post. But that’s all I have right now.