I Know I’m Fine, Why am I Freaking Out?
I have been journaling this morning and the overall theme is “I’m ok.” Or at least it was…until I got a phone call.
It’s one that I have been wanting. I have a job. I start orientation tomorrow. So why am I unhappy? Why am I freaking out?
I panicked and called my therapist, because she told me to call her when I was feeling like this, or feeling down. But now, I feel like I’ve made a huge mistake. I feel like everything is going wrong, simply because of a job offer!
Why do I not want this anymore? Yesterday, I had the interview, everything was fine. I was excited, and ready. Now, I feel wrong.
I’m feeling better. But now I have to go see my therapist at 3 today. And I feel like it was a mistake calling her.