Today’s session went really well. My counselor was very pleased with my progress. She says that there is a sparkle back in my eyes that hasn’t been there for a while. I noticed it too. I feel pretty good today.
She talks a lot, a lot more than I think that a counselor should, but I like going to her. She thinks that I’m doing well. She likes my idea about speaking before a high school, saying that I’m being brave. She thinks that my story needs to be heard and that i have a lot to give others.
She also wants me to call her when I start to get down, because she wants to keep up with me. She also knows that I don’t have a job, which means no insurance, which means no money. She said not to worry about it. And for that I’m thankful. One less thing to worry about.
We talked about trying to get Rockee in to be a therapy dog… The best advice she could give me was to look online, which is what I’ve been doing. I can find the testing, the requirements, but not the training. So, if any of my readers have any suggestions on that, I would be very eager to hear from you.
Life has been very good as of the last few weeks. There was a down period last week, but like I told Pat, I don’t know if it was because of the circumstances surrounding me, or if I was simply depressed. I’m pretty sure that it was due to the circumstances.
I might have a job. So, that’s good I guess. I know that I need a job because I need the money and the insurance that is offered. But I’m nervous, or at least apprehensive because I like being able to schedule my life around what I want to do, instead of around a job. But, we’ll see how well it goes.
In therapy, we talked a little bit about my dreams. They all include bitch. That is something that is ever present. Pat thought that maybe it’s because I want to pursue that with her. But I told her that I know where bitch is, and it’s not a good place for me right now. I know that it’s something that I can’t handle right now. Pat said that she understood. And she thought that it would be good for me to just put that on the back burner and maybe come back to it later.
I think that I’ve made a lot of progress. I hope that this trend continues.